It floats around, always in the air, filling me with every inhaled breath.  The smell is pleasent at first, causing me to smile as its warmth expands my lungs.  And yet, suddenly breathing isn’t so simple.  The passage way to my lungs has been taken captive, leaving me unable to catch my breath.  Drugs are pumped into me to try and dull the pain that overwhelms me.  The pain weakens, but my breath is still held by the assailent, sickness.

Who Hurt You So? - Edna St. Vincent Millay

Who hurt you so,

My dear?

Who, so long ago

When you were very young

Did, said, became, was … something that you did not know

Beauty could ever do, say, be, become? –

So that your brown eyes filled

With tears they never, not to this day, have shed….

Not because one more boy stood hurt by life,

No: because something deathless had dropped dead –

An ugly, an indecent thing to do –

So that you stood and stared, with open mouth in which the tongue

Froze slowly backward toward its root,

As if it would not speak again, too badly stung

By memories thick as wasps about a nest invaded

To know if or if not you suffered pain.

I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I’m still driving away
And I’m sorry every day
I won’t always love these selfish things
I won’t always live not stopping

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You’ll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I’m here I’m now I’m ready
Holding on tight
Don’t give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I’ll be 23
I won’t always love what I’ll never have
I won’t always live in my regrets

You’ll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I’m here I’m now I’m ready
Holding on tight
Don’t give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

You’ll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
I’m here I’m now I’m ready
What are you hoping for?
Holding on tight
Don’t give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

You’ll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I’m here I’m now I’m ready
Holding on tight
Don’t give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

I’m in the business of misery,
Let’s take it from the top.
She’s got a body like an hourglass it’s ticking like a clock.
It’s a matter of time before we all run out,
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.

I waited eight long months,
She finally set him free.
I told him I couldn’t lie he was the only one for me.
Two weeks and we caught on fire,
She’s got it out for me,
But I wear the biggest smile.

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
Cause God it just feels so,
It just feels so good.

Second chances they don’t ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you’re nothing more, I’m sorry, that’ll never change.
And about forgiveness, we’re both supposed to have exchanged.
I’m sorry honey, but I’m passin’ up, now look this way.
Well there’s a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it’s easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him right now.
And if you could then you know you would.
Cause God it just feels so,
It just feels so good.

I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving.

Whoa, I never meant to brag,
But I got him where I want him now.

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
Cause God it just feels so,
It just feels so good.

Yep, it’s that time of the year again.  July has finally come along with the much awaited Tour de France.  This year has been a little different then past, main difference being that the officals droped the time bonuses, which has created a very intersting first few stages.  So far we have seen the Yellow Jersey being pasted around to quite a few different riders, and so far a sprinter hasn’t has the chance to wear this prized possestion.  The mountain stages start Saturday and I am sure that they will cause some time gaps within the GC.  As it stands now the two American are the two top teams, with more then anough men in the top 10 to come out with an overall win.  We will all watch with ernest to see what happens in the next two and a half weeks.